Life Among the Titans

Rollover is very different now and I am considering how I fit in to a barn full of professionals. I wish to maintain self-respect and confidence in the midst of all of this. In so doing here are some of my thoughts:

Strengths/assets	Challenges	What I want
hugely care about horses happiness	lack of self confidence	establish some level of competence
hugely dedicated to learning	desire to lead and follow	be proud of accomplishment
history of learning	easier to follow a strong leader	need to put it to purpose
ballet learning to draw on that applies	get distracted easily	an area of expertise that has value
social work learning	can be lazy and moody	need to give back
RBE attuned unconciously	RBE attuned unconciously	to get better at reading horses
good at mentoring and supporting	feeling like a failure	to be a stronger more fit rider
really smart	taking the time to read the moment	improved cueing
social security income		training to level 1 dressage knowledge
I have passed L3 Parelli and well thru L4+
I have the physical strength for decent hack		get back on track with Devon
I have learned a good bit about dressage		find fun slow stuff for Try
able to help horses be more confident		filling Try's bucket
able to help horses make small changes		watch BA and MH more
able to help horses relax		Try: canter
able to give a horse a L1-2 foundation		Try: physical connection/vertical flex
self confidence
hard worker		rider tests
ba keeps me tough
ba sees to my physical fitness and safety
ba finds opportunities for me
kathy dedicated to my learning
kathy supports me on many levels
kathy coaches on many levels - depth
dan helps me read horses
dan helps me see the big picture
mh is very clear and gives me visuals
competing isn't interesting to me
I don't need to be an instructor
trail riding isn't a goal
enjoy accomplishment & progress
enjoy others successes